Acceptance

So we had this wonderful pastor "Boris Shiva" For as long as i can remember. He is my uncle and i trust him with my life. I turned to him when anything has gone wrong or when there was no one else to go to. He helped me so much. When i found out that the church was replacing him i got so sad. I thought maybe it was gossip and he wouldnt leave his place in this church. Then things got serious and there was a vote and he was gone. I was mad at the church i couldnt even step foot into it knowing that we had such a great leader and they just tossed him out. He wasn't just great because he was my uncle, the way he spoke it was understandable and it was wonderful. When he left our church as a our pastor, a part of me left too. This church isnt the same without him. He was the best leader. I will never replace him in my heart. So in his place 'sub pastor' we got this new guy. He does everything his way and mostly not even by the bible. He is trying to change this normal baptist church into a strict baptist church. When he prays i feel like he has left out most of the world. That he only prays for his people. He is against americans. He doesnt let us sing or talk or preach in american.I honestly as my opinion i think that is wrong. In my heart i know its wrong to not forgive and move on and accept him. But i dont think i can ever do that. So i have been thinking that now its my turn to move on onto a different church. I am going now start going to American church.

Why is that when someone is trying to do the best for us they ignore it? Will ever change, before God comes?

(sometimes when i pray i cry thinking about how great it was with Dada Bora)
I also heard that he is happy right now, spending time with his family. No worries that ppl are pointing fingers at him. That he can travel around the world preaching is wonderful words.

Life flashes before your eyes..

So i was just talking to my sister how so many deers get hit on this road highway 2, and i realize we slamming on the breaks apparently this big fat deer jumped right infront of our car.. it was so scary. We hit it and it like tore apart.. the legs flew over the car and the body with the head flew infront, it landed infront of the car on the road. So we went around it, cause my sisters jeep doesnt have reverse. So we kept driving and then pulled over into a high school parking lot. She thought the car was fine, i walk out with my camera and just start taking pics.. the front is smashed in, the lights and grill is totally gone, the deer's fur is all over the car, some blood splattered. She called her husband and he pulled up with our lil brother and brother in law and they open the hood and the motor is moved out of place, its pushed up. we have no idea how we still could have driven. So we got home safely the car died right by our house so we rolled down the hill and parked it in the yard.

My sister and i had a conversation. How lucky we were. Cause is that deer had went thru the windshield one of us or even both of us wouldnt be alive.... We even prayed before we drove. but we both know that God had a reason for what happened. Its just a flash to what can happen in seconds..

Now we just sit at home. I guess God had a reason for us to not go anywhere that day. I am happy. I came home and i was a lil bit shaken still cause it was a hard hit. The booster seat in the back flew all the way to the front and hit me in the head, but didnt knock me out. I am thankful thats all the injuries i got from that. My sister is fine.. just was shaken up.

We know now to be very alert for things in life that happen without a blink of an eye...

Why does it bother me (us)?

So when we repent to our Lord in Heaven he forgives us our sin(s) and forgets it. Why is that when we repent in church, that church forgives and the pastor forgives but they dont seem to forget. They remind us all everyday. Remember that thing you did, remember i forgave you for your sins. Its a constant reminder. Why is it like that? Why is that i stand in church and hear the pastor pray 'please God protect our christian youth?' Why does it hurt me? why does it feel like i am left out as well as the others? To me i dont think he said the right things.. He should say every youth... He cant choose and pick out who is christian and who isnt. We are all God's children..
I have been wanting to get this off my chest...

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