My Truth

I am so lonely. Anywhere i go there are couples, to the left and to the right. Makes me wonder will that ever be me? seriously and i know my friends tell me just wait he is just around the corner. Which corner? I am trying to be reasonable. Yes i just got out of a divorce. Which is embarrassing but what could i do he didnt love me, and i thought i loved him. It was a blinded marriage. Didnt even feel like a marriage we got married and 3 weeks later he was locked up. Someone told me they think i will never be in a real relationship. They say that once the relationship hits the 7 month mark then i start to find reasons to get away. I looked and thought about it and yes in some cases that is true. But in those 7 months the real person starts showing up and i dont like that person or we just dont get along and we have different meanings and our thoughts dont complete each other. Most of my friends are in love, getting married having children and me i got nothing. No man in my life. Nobody to hold me tight and tell me they love me for who i am. Will i ever get my 2nd half? do i have a soulmate? or was i meant to be alone? These are questions i seem to have in my mind alot. Will they ever be answered? Well i have had this cooped up in my life. I know God will send me the right man, the man he has chosen for me, just it isnt my time. I know i have to leave everything up to him, but i cant help it and wonder on my own. I sound like a sad lost little soul. I am sad most of these days, i dont shout it from the roof tops and not many of my friends know how i am. I hide this side of me. Well at least here i can share it.